10:14 PM ●

Thursday, March 26, 2009
i feel sad.
VERYVERYVERYVERYVERY SAD
i just do.
no, i just do because i miss ___________. and isabelle.
and all her nonsense.
i feel abandoned, perhaps.
and i just feel reallly emo.
after reading blogs and lalalala.
its not the content.
its just that life.
goes. on.

and perhaps i am emo cos i
should
have
chosen
dance
as
my
retarded
CCA
and
i
probably
wouldn't
be
so
sad
right
now.
and
mebbe
cos
i
am
so
behind
some
stuff.
and
i
am
being
forgotten
again.
and
i
wish
i
could
feel
whole.
cos
now
i
just
feel
a
deep
deep
sadness
for
no
apprent
reason
othe
than
that
i
feel
that
LIFE
JUST
GOES
ON
AND
ON.
EVEN
when
i'm
not
there.
i
am
apparently
not
needed.
but
that's really really selfish.
i guess. and i shouldn't think that at all.
and i need JESUS CHRIST NOW IN MY HEART IN MY LIFE IN MY WORLD IN EVERYTHING I DO AND THAT HE WILL MAKE ME FEEL 100% BETTER AND I WON'T BE SO EMO.
I DON'T WANT TO EXPLAIN ANYTHING.
I. JUST. WANT. TO. DIE.
NO, ACTUALLY I DON'T
i just feel...inferior.
and i feeel...that i am being forgotten.
again.
and
again.
and
again.
for you, LORD, A THOUSAND TIME OVER.

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )